"Breakthrough" or maybe "Coming out" (?)I think I've finished my BJP July page. The theme of keys has popped up regularly recently. After several attempts I managed to loose my house keys with my lucky keyring (with a tiny Indian mirror). Then somebody was waving a key postcard at me at a party, then it popped up in a dream. I'm not sure I want to talk about this dream just yet though... Funnily enough all four fabrics were bought from the "Marché Saint Pierre" (St Peter's market), the well-known cheap fabric store just underneath the "Sacré Coeur" church (sacred Heart).

I began bead embroidery thanks to Robin Atkins. I fell in love with her spirit dolls and just had to do one. Then I read "
One bead at a time", which is a great book. However something kept nagging me. Robin advises to take a piece of fabric you really like, to then sow a bead you like, and keep going till you are pleased with the result. I have seen many beautiful pieces done that way by Robin and other bead artists. As for me, I am incapable of doing so ; I get really upset if too much of my fabric is concealed. I have tried figuring out what this means... Is this something to do with lying, shyness ("who am I to improve this fabric?"), tightness ("I paid for that fabric"), reptilian fear ???

My first BJP page I wanted to do in bright colours against black, it didn't work at all so I changed my mind. For a long time I have been attracted to "
molas", traditional Women clothes of the Kuna indians of Panama. It is a version of "reversed appliqué". I've tried to imitate one. My July piece has therefore also been a mean to meditate about "what do you choose to show, what to you choose to conceal". It is also about frustration and accepting my limitations. I've had a hard time with that metallic purple thread and that thin black fabric again. What I find really weird is that I have the feeling I already know this piece, and it's
totally me.
Other threads of inspiration...
My daughter is a fan of the game Kingdom Hearts in which the hero fights with the help of a keyblade.
Nuremberg Castle
Church Door in Nuremberg
Buchenwald camp
